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  01 ,2011

March 2013: やっとアメリカ生活第一歩を踏み出した! <<< April 2011: 9年の東京生活に別れを告げナゴヤに一時撤収


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e6102032

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1983年生まれ かに座 B型

現在地:Los Angeles, California (since March 2013)

経歴:金融・技術翻訳者ときどきDTPオペレーター、誤字ハンター、嫌々役員アシスタント etc...
 
特徴:自他ともに認める器用貧乏、浪費家エセレブ、世に言う肉食女子、左脳インプット右脳アウトプットですがなにか?

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名古屋の私立中高一貫女子校から東京の国立大に進み英語を専攻。ってとこまでは良かったけど、その後自分の進路はさっぱり見つからず、降って来るのは、リーマンショックやら震災やら、そんなんばっか。金融機関勤務満5年を目前に控えた2011年3月に2社目をimpulsive退職。

USCPA、海外大学院留学、ワーホリ/Jビザ就職、等々・・・ なんだか進むべき道はある様でない様で・・・ 
愛知県A郡の実家を起点に、転落人生を救う、迷走の軌跡。的な?

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更新:

2013年4月〜
UCLA Extensionにフルタイム留学。(General Business Studies Certificate with Accounting Concentrationプログラム)

2014年7月〜
UCLA Extensionを修了したことで得たOPTにて、会計監査事務所で就業開始。Extensionで授業も取りつつ二足の草鞋。
大学院は未だ学費工面の目処立たず先送り中。
 
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01/21
Hmmmmmmm... How should I put this...

First of all, I never had a crazy adolescence nor college hook-ups.
That's my excuse for being occasioanally over-spontaneous and lubricious(?)...

So here's what happened:
I hosted a highschool friend of mine S, who travelled all the way from our hometown with a plan to make a reunion with her old romantic interest Pat at a party he organized last night after 8 years since he "broke her heart". And I accompanied her.
She continuously confessed that she might be falling for him so easily because he's too cute, before and during the party.
For me, though, his way of acting and talking was typically pathetic womanizer type. Half-Asian-ish looking is not exactly my thing, either. I thought, if I were her, I wouldn't get involved with him at least emotionally.
Yet, of course, she's old enough to decide to or not to flirt with him again. Not my business. It was supposed to be that's that...
But, thing is, somehow he started to flirt with me, too, in the mean time with her. Oh, yuck.

Maybe I should have been feeling honored to get attention of that kind of guy, and honestly speaking I might have thought like "it wouldn't hurt trying him on" IF she hadn't been there. But in reality it was ridiculously unworth putting myself in such a dillemma, I thought. It was simply annoying when he was trying to talk me into joining his "private" afterparty plan.
However my friend S's feeling seemed quite mixed, confused and confusing to me. Saying she wanted to take off to avoid dramas, never declined his invitation to his apartment. I had no intention to stay in her way to whatever pleasure or pain possibly caused. So, I agreed to come with them solely to let her choose.

Well, also Pat's buddy O was, on the other hand, so determined to "take home" her. In case he sort things out well, carrying out Pat's "plan" could become not too bad an idea, I thought. I don't deny that.

Buuuuut, drunk people by definition are never ever capable of following the plot in mind. Dah!
It was alright when they two were cooking together and I was trying to sleep alone in the next room. But he impatiently sent S to O's apartment on the lower floor of the same building where others were afterpartying, telling he'd soon catch up with them with the completed dishes, and started to work on me... Oh dear...
As easily expected, she returned to check out on him after a short while. As I had told him to, the door was locked and so we didn't get caught in the act, but didn't have time to cover up the situation couldn't be earned, either... I wished I had been wearing a simpler dress to put back on in the second! I really shouldn't have chosen such a troublesome pair of dresses as that night's outfit, but who could have foreseen that I ended up letting something so stupid as this happen!!!

Putting my longtime friendship at stake, all I had was an only semi-successful one night stand in the former Andre's residence (even the same floor!! Wasn't as big as Andre's, though).
Maybe for the first time in my dating history, I didn't give a guy my email or phone number. I saw no point giving another shot to he and me.
Casual dating is more or less what I feel like to have in my current limbo life.
But he was just a gigantic bluffing douche. He talks too much about what he can't make happen. Perform at least half the big mouth of yours, man!
Not that I was disappointed to find so. I knew it, and more unmistakably confirmed after several hours.

Well, it was nice to get laid for the first time in three months. Was a hell of exercise!

I talked a bit with S after I came home. She was saying I should feel free to go for him as seemingly he and I have more common interests (than he and herself?), or something like that. I wasn't sure if I should have told her this, but made it clear that it is not a ongoing thing, nothing even potentially romantic.
In my defence, I was really hoping things turn out differently. I would have been so happy if she hooked up with either O or Pat given that was what she wanted, and I got the remaining one or none. I kind of liked the Brit more from the beginning!

But what is done is done.
Should I have said sorry? Maybe... Guess I couldn't, though... It felt weird to say it aloud.
Did I hurt her? Can't say no... But he is not worth crying for, and she said she was agreeing. I guess Pat came on to me after he'd given up sleeping with her first, and if she had been signalling differently he must have gone after her, which was another happy ending for him. Point is I never intended to steal him from her actively... I'm aware it doesn't mean I was innocent for hurting her by let it happen even passively...
Sounds super hypocritical, but I wish at least she learned a lesson and how to avoid getting hurt by a jerk like him or find a way to turn those jerks into her own pleasure...

And I'm sorry, after all.

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バチ?
風邪をひいた。

やはり悪いことをしてはいけない、ということなのか?

無性に中華が食べたくなり駅ビルにひとり駆け込む。

中華が食べたい状況をヒトは健康体と笑うだろうか。

思えば、先週の金曜日の夜も中華だった。

あの時の私は、今とは違う心境だった。

あんな低俗な行いを自らがなすに至るとは想像だにしていなかった。

もともと倫理感の強い人間ではないし、そうなりたいとも思ってこなかったが、

それは特段に強く自らを律せずとも一定程度以上の愚行に及ぶことはないという、自負があったからだ。

自分に裏表はなく、理性と感情/無意識との乖離もないのだと。

というのはつまり、表が裏でもあると思っていた。

が、裏をあっさり晒してしまう方に作用し、それは怖るべき醜態だった。

酔ってすらいない、フル稼働の意識が下した決定かと思うと、おぞましい。

妙な「なんとかなる」思考にひどく蝕まれている。

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